Hello,
On the day of our wedding I was diagnosed with an aggressive liver cancer. Then came the 6 months of week long chemo courses, and the sickness, the opiates, the insidious fatigue, the infections, the pneumonia's, and the living hell that lasted long after that. Does anybody on this planet, anybody besides God understand that when being treated for illness with that much poison, and to feel that sick and tired for that long that it is often hard to be nice? That it is hard to just even smile?

Why God is it for you that only you consider our circumstances in our actions, in our sins before you judge us? Why cant we do the same thing for each other? When is it OK in this world to fall apart and just not be able to take anymore? When is OK to fall apart? I know my words were not nice, but i just felt so bad, You know I never meant anything by them.

Can you please fix us Lord? It seems that the storm is finally over and I don't want it to be for nothing. We married for all the right reasons, our child the first to honor You. To give him the gift of a complete family--is that your will? Please fill in where we lack...please fix us...please! .

Thanks...